DONUTs r YUMMIE ! :DD

i seriously think i shld start answering calls and texts before all my friends get pissed at me :(

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOO SORRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYY, REALLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

don't knw what's gotten into me, ;x

no motivation to reply at all. urghhhhs.

and sometimes when a frnd drops me a really sweeeeeeeeet text. i would take ages to reply. not because im not grateful or happy.
but it's actually because i'm thinking of how should i reply. i wanna show tt im really happpy and grateful. and wanna drop you sth
sweeeet tooooo. that's why! 

SO PLEASE DONNNNT DOUBTTTTTTT my LOVEEE for you friends when i dont reply your sweet textss!!! 
*i'm not lying !!!

i'm always happppyyyy and <3 recieving this kinda texts ! and i wanna thank all those who sent me :)))) 
muchhh <3

okay. not much will read this. but this is what i wanna tell those whom are dearest to me :)

anw. i wanna travel the work and do volunteery work. but first of all. i think i shld go to work first.
if not where's the money coming from?
daddy dearest?
hahaha !

TATA!

i feeeeeeeeeel so dumbbbbbbbbb! okay. maybe not dumb. but i dont knw what word shld i use. hahaa! 
told fattie chew what happened though =.=

it's like you want sth so badly. but when it comes, you push it away. then after you push it away. you realise how dumb you can be.

haaaa!

okay! BYEEEE !

anw, iphone 4 white, when are you coming out?

making used of. ever thought that someone is making use of you ? your frnds? best frnds? close frnds? 
mmmmmmmmm, i dont really knw how to define what's making use of is actually. and i don't want to
think that my frnds are making use of me. i know im naive and i believe ppl easily. so, if im really make use
of. it would be my own fault. what to do? i can't tell if someone is telling a lie or whatsoever. i always need my
frnds to tell me. so, some always tell me not to trust someone so easily. sighs.when can i ever tell?

and my frnds told me. when you start working. you will actually be more skeptical. you will be more doubtful.
i think before working. im alrdy having a prob like that. oh man. i think aging might be one of the factors.
ha. :)

okay. i really wish i can go overseas for further studies. i dont wanna stay in this sunny island.

dear diary. i have so much to say. but i cant put them in words.

till then.

:)

OMG. is is the after effects of night cycling???!!!! >.< i feeeeel so sleepy anddddd lazyyyyyy! OMGG !!!!!!

i missed 2 outings. boohoohooo!

i remembered, the other time i went for RAINBOW trek, i felt so sleepy the next few days too. omg. hahaha

not hungry and still stuffing food into my mouth. HOLY !

i want to take PHOTOS! PHOTOS PHOTOSS!!!!!!! NICE PHOTOSS! AWESOMEEEEEEE PHOTOS!!!!!!! ARTISTICPHOTOOS!!!

TEACH ME SOMEONE  ! :DDDD

<3 <3 <3

*goshistillmiss*

my graduation photo's sooo disappointing ! :((( they didnt even take my front view. sobbs  ! :( the only photo on stage. the only photo of me getting my degree is RUINED! :( sooo saddddddddddddddd! im really saddddddddddddd! 

:(


okay. shld i get a dog? renovate my room? or a dslr?work & travel? voluntary work overseas? :D

STEP3D 's AWESOMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEE! i love tt movie :) it's been long since i step into a cinema. :( miss those times alrdy :(
anw, i love the songs. and i totally uds how tt girl in tt movie feels. (it's up to you to guess which girl im talking abt.ha!) just tt she had a happy ending. which im glad :) but mine's a sad ending. hahaha ! and gosh. talking abt tt. ireallymiss*. :~(

on a random note, i actually used baby hayden's pic as my desktop wallpaper ! haaaa! okay, it may sound a lil creepy to use a frnd sister's baby's pic as a wallpaper. but his really ADORABLE! like a lil angel ! all your sadness will be gone when you seeeee his cute lil face! hahaha! :) so ya ! 

okay. im really putting on wt ever since i came back frm usa. damnnnn! i have been losing control over the amount of fooooooood im gorging down my poor tummy! it's time to stop. i think my body can't take it anymore ! >.<

DAD asked what i wanted for my graduation. at first i thought his implying what i wanna do after my graduation (like find a job, study
somemore, etc). BUT NO! he wanted to give me a gift. awwwwwwwwwwww. soooooooo sweeeeeeeeeet of my dad. i really didn't
expect a gift AT ALL. i was just thinking abt it this nooon (cause i saw someone getting a gift from her dad after her grad in FB,HA!).
and he actually asked me in the evening. COOOOL ! haaaaaaaaaaaaa !:) im still thinking what i want. i really have no idea ! :)

i keeeeep seeeingggggg *. omg. hallucinations!

it's the end of the month yet again. the year is coming to an end. gosh. time really flies.

i think i shldn't spend that much time dwelling on the past and whether or not * will ever call me again, talk to me,
tell me * personal stuff, will ever be that close again. it doesn't help a bit dwelling on it. it made things worst. i have to
put up a happy front, trying my best not to be a kill joy. but it's really difficult. and thinking abt all these stuff sometimes
really made my head spiinnnnn! i sudd realised i actually spent too much time and effort on this friendship that i
kinda neglected the other friendships that i have. :( im so obsessed over this to think abt the others. how could i
have done that. oh man. since now * has moved on. i really think i shld too. maybe i shld spend time on other frnds who
are dear to me. i shld make new friends and all. but im just not in that mood now. im know im saying all these. but it will
all soon be back to square one. i guess i need TIME. they say time heals all wounds. but it's really difficult. i think i need
HELL LOT of time. but i don't really have much to waste. escaping is the easiest thing to do now. but where can i escape
too? im still stucked in this teeny weeny sunny island. urghs. if only im still is usa :)

okay. after typing allllll these. i still cant bear to forgo this friendship :( WHYY can't i just let go?!!!!!!!! urghhhhhhhhhhs!!!!!

okay. on a random note. i miss 126 dim sum alrdy.
and lucky for the few frnds who came for my convocation. or i will really really really feel damnnnn sad. :(
cause graduating alone is no joke. it's TERRIBLE. for me i guess. it's my fault for not passing my subjects.
oh well. im really grateful for those frnds :) THANKSSSSSSSSSSS dearest frnds :)

and im actually kinda sad some of the closest one weren't there. oh well. i guess they have their own reasons. :)

TA!

after coming bck frm us, i felt so happy and refreshed. full of confidence, enthusiastic about life. blablabla.

but after a few weeks. im back to sq one. just like what im before, before flying to US.

hate it ! i really wanna leave this ctry.

the word "emo" shldnt be in my dictionary anymore.

urghs.

okay. im seriously craving for mexican food.

wherearemyclosest frnds?ireallydontknw.
maybeichosetobelievethattheyaremyclosestfrnds.
andthat'sthewrongchoice.ohdear.whatshldido.

hello LJ ! haven't been typing for the longest time!

something is really wrong. which i think i know why. but maybe i don't really know why either. mmmm. confusing hur?

hv been stuffing myself silly.

not answering calls. well maybe it's because of the damn phone.

but im sure there's sth else too. but WHAT?

GOODNESS.

okay. bye ! i seriously need to distance myself frm everything,everyone.

:)

THANKSSS to the lovlies who came to send me off ! :p and those who wanna come but cldnt make it ! 

LOVEE youuu guyysss !!!!

i CRIED. so embarrassing ! >.<

HAHAHAHAHA !!!

okay. im in HONG KONG now. its mad fast !

and channy is stil shitting! OH NO! 

BYEBYE !

i miss the balloon and lollipop! hope after two months. it will still be GOOD ! :)

xoxo